what up, old LJ?
Why was I so dumb in high school?
i got it today. and my entire reply is: whatever.
first of all, you may be wondering why i haven't been on here or on msn or myspace in over a month.
the answer is quite simple. eliminating a stressor from my life.
why try anymore?
okay. i'll be real here. it's not going to be the same, and i don't want to go back to how things were no matter how much i miss it. it was all a mistake. and this is the internet, so i'll get over it. and apologizing doesn't help. there are people i don't want in my life anymore and they'll just have to face that fact. i'm sorry, but it's true. and i needed to get that out so you know where you stand. apologizing doesn't help. putting me first on your myspace top 8 doesn't help, and adding me to your LJ interests doesn't help. there is no helping it, and i'm not coming back. i doubt you'd want me to now anyway.
and for god's sake stop acting like you CARE. You don't. Stop creating an illusion. if you cared, you'd send me an email, a message on Myspace, a dmail, a letter in in the real mail, anything. it's not that difficult. so shut up and stop bs-ing your way through life. it's like, "ooh i miss her so much! it's been forever since we've talked!" BULLCRAP.
if i added you to my new accounts, feel special. if i didn't, you might know why.
i have enough to worry about in my life (school, you know... ) than to worry about any of this.
i went through an "I hate people" phase, though you'd probably never be able to see by looking at me or hearing me talk, really. i went through an "i can't stop thinking about this" phase, and still am. but it will stop.
i don't believe in people anymore, though. thanks a lot.
remember: why try to go back, when all you can do is go forward?
remember: you have no idea what deep is.
It's good to know that I wasn't alone. The thing was, it was a crescent last night, so when the thought occured to me I didn't care.
- Current Music:Nightmare of You - "Thumbelina".
Then I'll have one up on worshipmefools because he doesn't even KNOW Dutch and he lives in The Netherlands. Hah hah hah. *cough*
Anyway, yeah, wow. Life and everything. It's crazy. I'm going to MCLA's open house tomorrow. Fun, fun fun. I can get my homework done in the car, including all the coloring for Thanksgiving break. And I could probably study for the test next week, right? YEAH I'D SAY SO.
Sigh. Stuff is so weird right now, and I don't know what to think. At all. I'm going to try to stop... heh. I'll just think about school and Dutch and yeah. Like that's ever gonna happen.
- Current Mood: blank
The common application says 250-500 words, so guess how many words my essay is exactly?
I can use this for ALL of my applications. Besides, I'm only applying to one that's not *of* the Common Application. MCLA. All the others: Susquehanna, HWS, Hartwick, and Cazenovia all are *of* the Common App. Yay!
Yesterday was funny. I decided to write my compare and contrast essay for English about my sister Phil and I. And I told Michelle that we have the same taste in music. She was like, "You do? Because I see her as a Britney Spears type..." and I told her I like some Britney Spears songs and she was like :o
My English essay is long and tedious, though, and there's barely any "vivid word choice", which I need. Oh well! All I need is the rough draft by Tuesday.
The Sociology class *gets* to go to Hudson HS on Monday. Woo hoo and stuff.
- Current Music:Britney Spears - "Lucky".
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The jail was interesting. Starting income is 40,000 something. That's pretty good. If I wanted to get into law enforcement and criminal stuff I'd try to work there. haha.
There were some hot peeps in jail. Also some crazy looking peeps and some old peeps that kind of disgusted me. I'd never say that while I was there though, I swear.
Police dogs sniffed out drugs and we all watched. That was fun, but I got a headache from the old gym we were all in. The acoustics and the lighting (as Gina said) were just really bad and that gave Tara, Gina, and me splitting headaches. On top of that, yeah. I wasn't feeling too healthy to begin with.
I was supposed to go to the library but I came home, took medicine, made Phil call the library, and then took a nap. That was fun. When I woke up, Gilmore Girls was on. Bleh!
I can't wait for the new South of Nowhere because that girl who plays Spencer is hot and so is her brother and so is her other brother and so is that girl who got knocked up but then lost the kid but that was way before Spencer and them moved there!
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- Current Mood: bitchy
- Current Music:Emery - Holding Out For A Hero